Time to reflect ……

It has been awhile since I’ve posted anything, but over the last few days I’ve found myself thinking about where I was 6 years ago where this journey began.

I was 34 weeks pregnant with our first baby. I’d had chest pains on and off for several weeks & my midwife said lets just send you to Kew Hospital in Invercargill (we were living in Queenstown at the time) just to be checked out and maybe I should just pack a bag just encase. Never in a million years was I prepared for what was going on with my body. After many tests which found nothing & made me to believe it was all in my head and its nothing. Thinking they would be sending me home … but no. I remembered the day so clearly … we were waiting for the doctor to come back with my results from the last lot of tests. Ben had gone to get something to eat. The doctor walked in with about 4 trainee doctors and said we’ve found blood clots in your lungs. I remember just looking blankly at them think What?? Ben walked back in and I said I have blood clots.

At the time I really didn’t know how serious it was. The doctors didn’t really seem to know what should be happening … pregnant and with blood clots. There were lots of “plans” made for how my delivery should go …. I was told I’d be home in a few days once the “plan” was in place …. a few days turned into 3 weeks. Women would come in and leave with their babies & I was still there waiting for this so call “plan”

Ben had to go back to Queenstown to work so my parents came down from Nelson to keep me company. Wasn’t a lot to do there .. I knew no one in Invercargill. I played a lot of cards!

Anyway … at 37 weeks mother nature took over and I went into labour and safely delivered our gorgeous son Austin. It wasn’t until we were home where everything hit home at how lucky I was. If the clots weren’t found who knows what could have happened.

I feel very lucky. Even though since then its been a rocking road with it leading into being diagnosed with two autoimmune illnesses, Lupus and antiphospholipid syndrome (APS).

Everyday that I have to fight through pain & everything that comes with Lupus …. I keep going for my two beautiful children that I’m so blessed to have. They are my world.